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Sunday 20 th January 2013
We are best friends,
But you left me that day,
Which made me upset,
Even after taking the plane.

I thought you would care,
When I'd start to cry,
But you would just say,
You wanted to sleep.

I wanted to talk,
To get things all clear,
But you gave me the message,
That its not what you mean.

And today we dont talk,
And today I feel guilty,
Is it my fault,
For having this problem?

I dont want to lose you,
But I want you to know,
If you care about me,
Say yes or no.

Because I love you,
for the friend you are,
But I'm scared,
that you don't care.

I'm scared that tomorrow,
we will not talk,
I'm scared that you will be,
the not yourself.

I'm scared that if we DO talk,
we won't get things clear straightaway.

Even though I want to be talking to you again,
I want you to understand,
how much you hurt me,
that day.

Thursday 6 th December 2012

I sometimes don't know what to do,
if I should say this or that,
or if I should follow you.

I don't know what is expected of me,
and what you want your bestfriend to be.

I don't understand what is right or wrong,
if I should say this as a poem,
or as a song.

But what I am trying to say,
is: Are your thoughts supposed to give away?
Am I supposed to say what I think,
or should I say what you want to hear?
Am I supposed to be honest,
or what is it you want to hear?

Because sometimes,
I might be annoying,
and sometimes,
I might scream.
But this is only because I'm being who I am,
and I'm saying what comes out of my mouth,
like water down a stream.

Everyperson is a puppet,
conducted by their friends,
telling them what to do.

But at this moment,
my friends aren't holding my strings,
and my puppet shape does what it thinks it should.

So friends,
may you hold my strings,
give me advice and tell me what to do?
Should I go away or follow you?
Should I say what I think or should I shut my mouth?
Should I be honest or should I talk dishonestly?
Because my puppet shape does not know what to do.

I don't know what is expected of me,
I might be annoying,
I sometimes don't know what to do,
Should I go away or follow you?
Are your thoughts supposed to give away?
I don't understand what is right or wrong,
and everyperson is a puppet,
But at this moment,
my friends aren't holding my strings,
and sometimes,
I might scream,
Because my puppet shape does not know what to do.
So what is and what you want your bestfriend to be?




Saturday 1 st December 2012
About my friends, after moving away :(

Thursday 22 nd November 2012

Sometimes you feel sorry for the past,
you feel sorry for what you did,
sometimes you realize and understand,
the way that people had thought about you.

Sometimes you sigh and think,
about the things and people you've lost in the past,
Sometimes you wish that the past,
would just come bock to the present.

Maybe you were popular before,
or maybe people liked you more,
maybe you had a really good friend,
but that friend either left or stopped liking you.

But everything can always change,
you can always change peoples' minds,
you can always step up and say,
"this is who I really am."

Never lose up hope,
never hate the people who let you down,
think about memories of the past,
but always remember of the present and future,
because although you can cover up your mistakes and be forgiven,
what is past is past and you cannot mend it.
 

Tuesday 29 th May 2012

When everyone is dressed identically,
no one wants to be with me,
When I need a partner for Sports,
Well I'm only their last choice.

When my friends are walking,
they don't wait for me,
When I am sitting alone,
they just go sit next to another somebody.

Sometimes I think I am appreciated,
but when I talk nobody listens,
but when I walk to people they casually walk away,
but when I need the bestest help no one is there for me.

When I need to copy notes,
they say: WHY?
When I need a partner for sports,
they say: WHY NOT THEM?
When I say I'm worried I'm breaking the school dress code,
they say: WELL, WHY DO YOU CARE ABOUT THESE THINGS? 

I am just tired, I hope this will stop.

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