Cloud of isolation

I have such feelings,
that are so unexplainable.
I wish I could write them in a poem, 
but it's not possible.

I need to explode,
to tell me feelings of the inside,
and since some are so private,
I can only write them in a poem.

That's how I feel better,
writing a poem.

You have a sudden urge of explaining your feelings,
But it's so hard to explain them.

But my feelings lately,
I feel lonely.

I feel lonely,
isolated,
deserted,
left out.

It's so hard to explain.

There are people I want to tell my problems to,
but they are never there.
They are only there with other people sharing other things, 
things that I don't understand.

I have good friends,
that are really nice to me,
but it's not enough,
nothing is ever going to be enough.

I wish that people would stop ignoring me,
and instead of calling on them to talk,
they would call upon me,
I'm just tired of being nice.

I'm just sick of keeping this to myself,
I thought this was done with,
but this cloud of isolation is going to follow me everywhere,
forever.